God is teaching me so much through this process! Of course I am learning to be patient. (God has been trying to teach me that for the last 3 years!) He is also teaching me to trust Him. I know that God has called us to adopt. So sometimes I wonder why it is so hard. I got my answer: If God only asked us to do things that are easy, then we wouldn't need to trust Him. He is teaching us to trust Him by giving us a problem and not giving us all the answers. I was very discouraged about the finances for our agency fees. I would look at our savings and crunch the numbers, I just couldn't see how it was humanly possible for us to save/raise that much money. That's because it's not "humanly" possible! We couldn't do any of this without God.
"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." (Phil 4:13)
We are contracting with our agency at the end of this month and our first agency fee is due. Based on what we have saved/raised, we are almost exactly $1,000 short. The month seems to be going by so fast and I just couldn't see where that money would come from. So I gave up! I gave it to God. I asked God to help me to trust Him and know that He will provide somehow. I thought maybe we would get a surprise donation check in the mail or one of us would get a bonus from work or... I didn't know how He would do it, but I wanted so badly to trust that He would. It is so hard to give things over completely to God. Then I received an e-mail yesterday from our adoption agency. In honor of Adoption month (November), they are providing a fee reduction of up to $1,000 to anyone who contracts by the end of the year. Tears filled my eyes as I read this. My prayers were not only heard, but answered! I am so amazed by the power of prayer! When you see God work in your life like this, you can't help but be awestruck. There aren't enough words to describe how awesome my Saviour is!
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Phil 4:6-7)
God has opened every door for this adoption. He hasn't made it easy, but He has made it very clear that this is what He wants us to do. God is truly changing our lives through this adoption and I couldn't be more grateful! Please continue to pray for us. Pray that we have patience throughout this process. Pray that our finances are met. And most of all, pray that our trust in God continues to grow.
"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." (Mark 11:24)
Awesome!!!!
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